in Highding

"I was blessed with a birth and a death, and i guess i just want some say in-between" - Ani DiFranco

Currently: Garden State Soundtrack-ing

Last night was completely one of the most bi-polar nights ive had thus far.

raging tears, anxiety headaches, and frustrated words.
'i ran away from it all' in all aspects of the phrase.
slowly calmed in the comfort of smoke and the voice of a caring friend.
further tranquiled beside the roaring firelplace and the crunchy sweetness of roasted marshmallows as Tenacious D serenaded us in the background.
ahhh, to blisfully fall into a beautiful THC-induced sleep.

what's your favorite posish? LOL.

still, my heart aches and i feel helpless. Of all things, i hate feeling helpless. I wish i had answers and the proper words and the strength. i used to think i did but that has all dissipated along with my wide-eyed naivete. i'm just as clueless as everyone else.