i was reading my own past entries..and i noticed most of them were depressing. I'm looking at the screen and i have this confused look on my face, thinking "what the hell? that's SO not me." obviously, it is me...but why did i only write in this thing when i was feeling all sad? and furthermore, DID I REALLY LET HIM GET ME THAT SAD? haha good job alex, you ho! just kidding you still be my dawg (i think). crazyness.

anyways, i'm getting a good vibe about the new year. graduating high school (*tear but WAHOO!!), a weight is finally off my shoulders, been partying and spending good time with friends and family since new year's eve...i'm chillin! like jon said last night..this is going to be the year of ME. i'm gonna change things that need to change and go back to my happy go lucky self. i miss that. i REALLY miss that. this past year, i got stuck in this never ending rut. no wonder i became depressed. but whatever...i'm back in the game, baby. i can feel it. =D