Re - Re-Wind ::winter relations thus far, 2003::

Oh, the irony of my last entry. =P

So with that statement i guess one could somehow assume that i'm now dating a filipino guy. YEP, thassss righhhht. Meaning, yes, i did break up with that previous so-called "boyfriend" (for lack of a better term) and that i have found a new playmate. LOL seriously folks, just kidding. More than a playmate (cough), he's a great friend and companion. He's just the RAWEST. Just call me extremely happy (and tired, and behind on my schoolwork...)

ok ok. Yeah i know, i could barely last a month with Berto. But come on, he was a scrub, straight up. The boy didnt have a car, a phone, a job, nor did he even go to school. Yes, i know i said he was driven and all of that, but in a way i think he just convinced me of that and somehow brainwashed me into thinking his little extracurricular activities such as hanging out at a studio were the key to his (lack of) success in the music industry. A-duh. Sometimes i'm such a dope.I dont even know how all that phased me into thinking he was doing something with his life when obviously he was in a complete rut. But in all honesty, even after all that, the main thing that interested me in the beginning was his openness and genuine niceness. He truly was a nice guy, and i thank him for that because Lord knows that nice guys rarely come into my life. Unfortunately, niceness alone in no way can carry a real relationship. And so it ended, February 13. Bwahaha, oops. So sue me, the bad timing was just a coincidence. *shrug* Well, big ups to a month and 5 days. My longest "official" relationship yet. Whoop whoop!

anyways berto who again? How can my mind shift from one to another so quickly? But this, this is bliss. I've already learned from the past to not have any expectations. But i also fear that continuously keeping my guard up may backfire on me. The fact that the feelings i have now are so reminiscent of other faded relationships (Alex, Dan) scare me, too. Still, this just feels so much more natural and laid back then those turn-my-world-upside-down guys and so I feel confident about this. Well, only time will tell...

you know i've gotta be happy to put this up =D...